HER TURN is done!

Finally!!

Right?

Well, for me at least. It didn't help that I got sidetracked to another writing project. When I finally managed to get back to working on Her Turn, I felt I'd lost the story and the characters and had to go back to the beginning and read.

Now, after weeks of writing when I had the chance (usually an hour or so in the morning before work), it's done. I feel like it's the story that wouldn't end. I also should've posted what I had done, but I really wanted to finish it and make one final post. After a few emails asking if I was ever going to finish it, I realize that might have been a mistake.

Anyway, Her Turn is a finished product and except for some reviewing and editing, I'll be posting the big finale on Amazon this week. Unfortunately, it can take up to two weeks for Amazon to review the changes and activate the Update feature. As soon as I see it activated, however, I will post another update.

In all honesty, looking back, I feel I should've split the book into two parts, but it also doesn't feel right to charge another 2.99 for part two when they really belong together. I'm not sure what the word count is, but at the moment it feels like an epic. It's not, believe me, but the baby always feels biggest when it's coming out of you. (I trust women on this since at this moment I'm unaware of any uterine features in myself.)

I plan to take a break, work a few other projects and start writing again, but I'll be honest, I miss science fiction. There's not a lot of great TG sci-fi. Maxwell Avoi has done quite a bit, and what I've read hasn't been too bad. It's not quite Jack Chalker, Heinlein or John Varley, but it's more of an even split of sci-fi and TG. I wrote some shorts about a man taking a vacation and ending up trapped in an android sex doll in the Gulliver universe that I've been considering revising and adding to.

For those who have been reading, thanks for you patience!

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Her Turn: Where is my Update?!?

Her Turn. Yes. Is it ready? No.

Strange as it may seem, I don't just write sexy transgendered feminizing tales. I write other fiction as well under other names.

I honestly thought I could finish another story and get it published, then return and write on Her Turn in time to make my usual 18th update.

But, sadly, I'm still writing the next part of  Her Turn and it will probably July 18th before I get it published. And by published I mean, I upload it, contact Amazon and it takes them about 2 weeks to activate the update feature. That's a bit of an irritation I hadn't counted on, but understandable, and for what Amazon provides, I really can't complain.

I'm working on the ending of Her Turn just now. It can't go on forever as much as fun as that might be. I love Tom and Christine, but there are other sexy little feminizing tales I would like to dive into. I've always wanted to write a follow up to the TG Rock and Roll band in the future and to do a follow up to my sexy salesman turned into a sexy android tale. I miss sci-fi.

Stories to look out for:
On the plus side, Ann Michelle has a new story coming out soon.

Fiona Piper has a new story out, entitled Sissified Boss.

Deborah Ford  has revised If You Must and added some new material.

Stay tuned, I'm hoping to have the finished version of Her Turn published by July 18th.

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Her Turn - Updated!

Yes, it's been updated. I can't complain, but I've learned the hard way that updates aren't automatic. Oops. You have to contact Amazon and ask them to look at the changes you've made, then if they decide they're significant, they'll provide the update feature.

I was hoping they'd also send notifications to the readers, but I don't think they did. I actually bought my own book to see what would happen, and what happened was I saw the update feature available, but I didn't receive an email. Oh well.

In a perfect world, they'd send a thousand sexy schoolgirls and maids to your door to leave a note, mmm. Sorry, drifted off for a moment there.

Also, on the Kindle Cloud, I haven't seen an easy update feature. On the Kindle, I can go to Tools and then Manager you Kindle, but on the Cloud, I don't see that. Yes, I have both the Kindle and the cloud, because Kindle doesn't have any kind of login feature that would allow me to switch accounts easily. I'm sure they have their reasons, but did you ever think there was something obvious that a company was missing and wonder how so many smart people could be so dumb? Maybe they've contracted the bimbo virus or something. mmm, sorry, drifted off again.

Her Turn is doing quite well (by my standards anyway), and I received a nice surprise payment in my email the other day. So, for everyone who has bought it and for those kind enough to email me with kind comments, my deepest thanks. Because of the inconvenience of the update feature, I'm planning one final chapter (a big one), and then I can leave poor Tom and wicked Christine behind and start on something new.

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Dominant Women

I love women. Have I mentioned that? I love women, and I want the best for them, and I respect them. I don't think a woman should have to (or want to) change herself to be with the man she loves.  This is why as a single guy I'm searching for a Dominant woman. It's not fair to date a wonderful woman and then spring it on her or "coerce" her into being Dominant. Is it?

Dominant women get an unfair rap. Women in general get an unfair rap, but so do men, but Dominant women get as an unfair rap as submissive men. Dominant women, after all, hate men. They're ball busting bitches who worship some femme deity and secretly wish all men were worms they could crush beneath the stiletto heels. Submissive men are weak and pathetic. They are sniveling little cowards who are probably gay and just don't know it. This seems to be the mainstream opinion. Fetish means people in leather hoods, piercing each other and pretending they're vampires and doing other weird things.

Is it any wonder I treated my desires as an embarrassing secret that existed inside me for so long? All the role models I could find were despicable. It's only been because of the magic of the internet and honest blogs that I've come to understand that most people have their little fetishes, and nearly all relationships have little issues with control. Even vanilla couples have their little control scenes. Maybe he likes to be on top. Maybe she likes it when he gets a little rough. Maybe he likes it when she bites his nipples. Maybe she likes seducing him into a frenzied state.

I've been Dominant before, and I've played with a friend and I can tell you A. I wasn't dressed in leather. B. I didn't pierce her or apply clothespins or hang her from the ceiling from her nipples and C. it was exciting as hell and when it was done, we went out to dinner and chatted like the old friends we were.

We were normal. That's all there was to it.

I've now had an opportunity to be submissive, and it was the same wonderful experience, perhaps better, because it felt like a more natural state for me to be in. In both cases there was an intense current of power being exchanged between us. As a Dominant, I knew exactly what to say and do to press her buttons, and when I did, she sank like a rock into submission and thrilled us both. As a submissive, I felt exposed, nervous and absolutely wonderful, because she seemed to know just what to say and do to drive me crazy. I felt as if she were reading my mind, as if she knew me.

I felt . . . "connected", and that's an extraordinary feeling.

But in both cases what made the current possible was intimacy and trust. For any relationship, these are powerful things.

I never trusted my wife enough, never let my guard down long enough to confide in her. I didn't let her know what I needed, because I was busy hiding it from myself. My marriage suffered for it. This is not to say that our marriage wouldn't have ended, but in some ways I'm a more honest person today because of the mistakes I made with her. I've forgiven her for her part in the ending of our relationship. I had an opportunity to tell her that earlier this year. I also forgave myself for my part. It was clear to me though that she had not forgiven herself. I wish I could help, but it's not my place.

Do I really want a Mistress that is cruel and harsh and unloving? No. I want a woman that I trust and who trusts me. Within that trust we may find that she does things (and that I want her to do things) that appear to be cruel and harsh and unloving, but we will both know the truth. Love, trust and intimacy will allow her to be all she has ever wanted to be, and allow me to be all I have wanted to be, and will allow us to be better together.

Do I really want a Mistress that is anything less than female? No. Why would I want a woman who wasn't soft and emotional and sweet and confusing? I wouldn't, and I don't. I may be submissive, but I'm still a man. I still like the chase. I still like a woman who smells, dresses and behaves like a woman. Why would I want to serve her if she was anything less than womanly?

Real dominant women get a bad rap, but the world, she is a-changing. What I write is all fantasy, and sometimes some of my fiction goes to an extreme level, but I know the difference between fantasy and a flesh and blood person smiling at me. I will always objectify women. I can't help it. They're beautiful, but I know how to get past their wonderful figures to the mind and heart and soul that drives them. I'm still learning, but I'm getting better.

Here's something I've learned. It's not about what you want; it's about what you can provide. This is something a Dominant woman taught me recently, and believe me, my first instinct was to rebel and refute and disagree, but instead I shut my mouth, swallowed my pride and paid attention.

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Her Turn (Part 2, Chapter 2) Updated!

Hypnosis and a pretty girl, but what if the "pretty girl" used to be your husband?

Tom and Christine's adventure continues. Honestly, I'm not a Kindle Publishing whore (well, mostly not), but I thought it would be interesting to treat an E-book like stories posted on Fictionmania and Literotica. Why just post a book, then post a sequel when you can continue the book? Instead of posting follow up chapters like on a free fiction site, I'm posting follow up chapters through the Kindle.

If this is being done in book form, I haven't noticed it.

HER TURN (Part 2; Chapter 3)
In the latest chapter, Christine again has Tom right where she wants him and right where he wants to be. We last left Tom tied to the bed in a suspicious fit of self bondage. Now Christine begins to make good on her warnings of changing him into the slave girl she wants. If Tom was still deluding himself that it might all be a game, he will now see the truth in a very real way.

Reviews:
And on another note, my little whining about having lost a review backfired on me in a big way. I got another review only it was negative (two stars). Oh, well, what can you do? I'll remind myself now that even Stephen King and John Grisham must have people who dislike their work.

If anyone was interested in stats, I've been watching the reports section of Amazon Kindle (which is interesting and convenient). In March, The Bridled Heart sold only a few copies, but it has never sold much, not even when first published. The pony girl genre seems to be less about romance and more abductions and non-consensuality, which doesn't appeal to me at all, but I do like the idea of pony girl training. It's very sexy. Instead of paying attention to the market, I wrote a pony girl romance instead. Also, Little Brown Girl has slowed to a trickle, selling only a dozen or so copies. It did very well for awhile though. Her Turn is averaging about 200 copies a month. I'm not sure what's common to be honest. There are also about 5 - 7 returns, which I thought might have been a part of the borrowing, but now I'm not sure. Maybe people are really buying it and returning it. It's a little disheartening, but it's a good impetus to do better.

I always want to write something that really rocks. I've been considering removing my stories from Fictionmania, rewriting them and posting them on the Kindle. It seems a bit unfair to simply post them on the Kindle when you can already get them for free. On the other hand, I like them the way they are, so maybe I'll just leave well enough alone.

After Her Turn is done, I have an idea for another story in a genre I haven't seen done with TG, but I'd also like to return TG Sci-Fi, which doesn't have enough material. Then again, since there isn't much (like my attempt at pony girl fiction), maybe there is a reason for that. Screw it. Let's find out.

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The Mystery of the Missing Review

I don't know why, but I lost a review on Her Turn. I used to have 2 reviews, now I only have one, which is a shame because a review is a review. It doesn't matter if it was good or not (not to me). This one wasn't bad; it gave me 3 stars and brought down my overall rating to 3.5 stars. (I have 4 now that the review is gone.)

I don't mean to be an ego freak, but both I like hearing what people have to say about my fiction, even if they don't like it. On Literotica, they can get pretty damning. I made the mistake of posting my story about a Female Led Relationship in the "Loving Wives" category and found that out quickly. The Loving Wives category is more about wives having sex with other people, not about putting their husbands in dog collars and taking control. Some of the more vivid criticisms called me "sick" and asked that I stay away from their pets / children, which was odd because there was nothing about animals or children in the story. It was also odd, because here was someone most likely pleasuring themselves to online erotica about wives behaving in very slutty ways, damning someone else for writing erotica they didn't agree with (or perhaps that disturbed them). I also noticed some of the same negative reviewers commented on several parts of the story, including the end.

Why would you continue to read something that disgusted you so much?

A Glowing Reviewer (get it?)

On Fictionmania, I've never received a negative review. It tended to be mostly positive, if not glowing. I only wrote a story on Literotica because the plot didn't contain any TG elements. It was the reviews on Fictionmania, however, that made me decide to place some stories in the E-Book market.

I'll say this: I don't need the money, but there is something nice about watching how many copies are being sold, and the moment I get a review, I prepare for the worst, but I'm usually pleasantly surprised.

Before I buy a book on Kindle, I read the reviews. Hell, before I buy anything on Amazon, I read the reviews. Reviews make me want to buy a certain product and steer clear of others. I've posted my own reviews on various products under different names (my pseudonym and my real name) with this in mind. Still, I know that at least for E-books, reviews aren't everything. Some of my favorites have never had a single review. Take "The Hotel" for instance. Not a single review, until I posted one.

For E-books, Fictionmania, etc. I doubt I will ever post a negative review (unless the author has done something egregious). But reviews matter. If you're ever inclined to post one, not necessarily on my work, but on fiction that rocked your boat, rang your clock, lit you up inside, tell the author and the audience that it did.

(For the record, I love pets and children and I'm very good with them and can't conceive of hurting either. My little perversion doesn't change the quality of my soul. If anything, it makes me more sympathetic to everyone's strange internal desires. And it's not perverted either: it's human sexuality. It don't get more diverse and perverse than that.)

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She is the Key to your pleasure

There are plenty of desires / fetishes to choose from when you're a guy like me. A lot of them even seem to come in package deals.

For example, read a few stories about male chastity and you might see the idea combined with cuckolding. You might also find it combined with feminization, but not necessarily. There are plenty of guys who wouldn't be caught dead in a pair of panties, but find it highly exciting to think of their wives / girlfriends having sex with someone else.

Feminization comes in all shapes and sizes, too. Some want to truly be turned female. Some are actually making the transition in real life. Others just want to play with it; perhaps they dress up every now and then, and still others are like me with no transition or dressing desires, but still find the fantasy hot.

It's been a progression for me from feminization (always with the idea of giving up control (usually through hypnosis / brainwashing, etc.)) to male chastity. But if you're a guy and you want to give up control to a woman, there's nothing more significant than giving her control over your most protected, sacred, cherished part. Giving up your rights to touch yourself, pleasure yourself on your own schedule, having to abide by her will and desire is a maddening notion, which I find highly erotic.

Male Chastity seems to come in two varieties: with a chastity device and without. You'll find arguments for both. Having her place you in a device, lock it and take the key is a symbol. It's not that you couldn't get out of the contraption. In fact, my understanding is that slip outs are common and they must be frequently be removed for cleaning and re-fitting and because of rubbing and abrasions. Having never worn one, I couldn't say. But the true excitement is that she now holds the key to your pleasure.

The true excitement is that she is now the ONLY way you will EVER get any pleasure again, not because you feel like cranking one off in your morning shower, not because it's late at night and you've fallen into the same trap of accidentally ending up watching YouPorn again. No. Now, you are physically restrained. It's a bit like focused bondage. She has tied up your penis and rendered you helpless.

Being on the honor system has its arguments as well. After all, why should she need to lock you up? Why shouldn't her desire, her whim, her word be enough? If you have truly submitted your cock to her control, you should be dedicated enough to simply obey her desires.

The only other difference is this: Wearing a device makes for painful erections; not wearing a device leaves you free to have erections. Which one is worse? Which idea is more maddening? Feeling the pain and restriction, the constant reminder of how she controls you? Or feeling the utter temptation of your hard, proud cock and knowing you're forbidden to touch it?

Along with giving up control of your cock to your beloved comes the idea of tease and denial. In most tales of chastity, this is integral, and this is what I find most fascinating, because it really is about empowering a female to use her beauty and utter sexiness in the most manipulative way possible. Strangely, this is something that probably all women do at one or another time in their life, but it appears to be frowned upon. Be cute or weepy or flirty and you might get out of a speeding ticket, but do that with all the men in your life and you may get pegged as a "tease". And a "tease" at least in the world of women I grew up in (and perhaps the male world as well) was considered a bad thing.

So what are the effects of male chastity? Maybe there are none, but read a few blogs and you'll be exposed to the theory. The theory goes like this: Because you can no longer touch yourself and give yourself pleasure, and because all of your pleasure is now contingent upon her whim / desire, you'll find yourself focusing more on her and her happiness, and less on yourself.

As a man, this sounds like a magic pill, a Godsend. I have in most of my relationships been selfish and lazy, so it would be nice to have some kick in the pants in the right direction. It's not an easy thing to put her needs ahead of my own, but I'd like to do it. I can imagine being the guy I'd like to be with a lover, but it's not an easy thing to put into practice.

There are also plenty of books that demonstrate clearly how to turn a man into your dream submissive, how to manipulate him and yes, even condition him (drool) into finding sexual pleasure in even performing household chores.

Is it all true? Like anything, the reality of it is what you make of it, but the fantasy can be anything you like.

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