Monday, March 25, 2013

Jo Santana

In addition to the top 3 books that always remain at the top of my kindle list (see previous posts), I also have authors I follow.

Jo Santana is one of them. Now, if you're expecting amazing variety, this is probably not your forte. Jo writes the equivalent of "pulp" in two TG genres: schoolgirls and maids.

Many of Jo's stories are very similar, but they're different enough to be enjoyable. They all tend to start with a somewhat contrived situation where the man or boy gets them self into a pickle and ends up thoroughly feminized. There is less of a "forced" quality, and more of a "coerced", albeit sometimes the coercion can be heavy handed.

As an author myself (this blog is at least in part me whoring myself out, after all), I can tell you one of the problems with Jo's work is a failure to pay attention to the advice that Kindle gives in how to format a book for publication. It gives very easy to follow guidelines about setting the paragraph and line spacing and you can see the results in Jo's work when one doesn't follow these guidelines. The lines and paragraphs are a bit too close together, which makes for a less than ideal reading experience. It doesn't kill the experience though. You can still read Jo's books just fine, and you'll probably get used to it rather quickly. Also, there are plenty of times where indentions for paragraphs were not formatted.

Other than that minor criticsm, Jo's work is fun and has that delicious struggle that has become one of the things I love most about some TG tales. Jo's characters are always trying to resist, but are usually in situations that will either get them killed or arrested and so they have no choice but to go along with their wife or parent or aunt and participate in their own feminization. Usually, by the end of the tale, our poor hero turned heroine falls in love with either another girl or themself as a girl that even when given the chance to return, they don't. They can't. They've been changed and can no longer fathom the male they once were.

I won't recommend any one book of Jo Santana. They all have their own little story to tell, and they all follow the same general trend, but they are well-written and worth the price of admission. They tend to be about 4.99 and usually take their time telling their story so the lengths tend to be at 130 - 150 pages.


Thursday, March 21, 2013

Strange Change

This is in my top three. After "The Hotel" and "A Change in our Marriage", Daisy Boon's "Strange Change" is the third story that always seems to be in my "last read" area of my Kindle.

Many of Daisy's other works deal with more direct Femdom and I find them less appealing. They often read like a narrator on a sport's field rather placing me in the minds of the characters, but she has three books that deal with the more gentle, teasing side of TG (which is my favorite).

This is by far her best. First, there are grammatical errors and the ending is a disaster. I think she was trying to give meaning to the story, to set up the nature behind this magical journey, to set up the sinister motivation, but it didn't work for me (and for a few others, judging by the reviews). I think the ending was unnecessary, but as a writer of this type of fiction myself, I can tell you, endings are tough.

So, that's what I don't like about the book, but there is a lot I like. It contains the elements I enjoy in a good TG story. There is a seduction, not only of the main character's journey from male to female in mind, body and spirit, but also his struggle to accept what he has become and more importantly his delicious struggle to not go "all the way". It's a struggle probably ever natural woman has had in her youth, and it's that virginal struggle that is so wonderful here. Our hero(ine) struggles valiantly not to give in to the temptation of being made a real woman, all the while the men around him surrender, one by one, adding peer pressure. They all are made to surrender in a very public way as well, on a stage in front of their wives and the other transformed men.

The guides, the situations, the themes of the days ("Today is an obedience day") all work to create more and more pressure, and I think it's interesting that soon after the transformation of the men they are all forbidden from having penetrative sex. They can only tease and be teased. There's nothing like being told you can't have something to make you want it.

There is a magical, dreamy quality to the entire story which is wonderful. While Daisy never directly tells you what the magic spell is, she does hint at it, providing descriptions of the newly transformed "girls" reacting to the touch and taste and attraction of their male guides' cum. You get the sense that with each touch, each taste, as the cream soaks into their skin, as it fills their bellies, they are somehow drawn deeper into the spell that is re-creating them.

It's a good ride. If this story were re-written and the ending changed, it would be five stars for me. As it is, the ending kills one star, but I can overlook the grammatical issues to keep it at four stars.

And let's face it, once I'm done reading it, I usually flip back to the beginning and start all over again.


Monday, March 11, 2013

A Change in Our Marriage - Sara Desmerais

First, you can't go wrong with any of Sara's work. All of her fiction is sweet and teasing and full of all the elements that I appreciate in a good feminization story. The wives, girlfriends, etc. seem to genuinely love and care for their boys, and seem to genuinely enjoy feminizing them. Out of all them, and there are quite a few (Her New Husband, Room and Board, The Sissy Pilot, Mother-in-Law's Visit, The Photo Shoot, He's The Bride), this one is my favorite. I'm not sure if it's the first one I read. It may be, and that might have created some bias for me.

If "The Hotel" was the quintessential maid story (and for me it is), this is the epitome of the feminization, cuckold fantasy. By epitome, this is what I mean. A good summary of this genre is this:

  1. Wife finds out about husband's fantasy: cuckolding and feminization.
  2. Wife eases, teases husband into the fantasy.
  3. Husband has his "careful what you wish for" experience.
  4. Husband ends up delightfully feminized and in heaven while his wife teases him with other her lovers.
Okay, maybe that's not a genre exactly, but I've read tons of these types of stories, and Sara's is the best out of all of them. Sara (the character in the story) is highly manipulative, but not in an overtly aggressive way. On the contrary, she teases, she questions, she persuades, and she uses his desire and pleasure against him in a way that makes it impossible for her husband, John, to resist. He struggles. He squirms. He pulls away, but she won't let go, and she even uses some little horse training metaphors along the way. She has a plan. She knows where she is leading him. He knows somewhere in his heart, but just can't admit to himself. Most important of all, they're both in heaven as she sweetly ushers him further into his fantasy than he ever would have dared.

Sara (the author) has good writing skills. That's important. Especially when I read so much fiction that sounds like someone calling a play in football. There's never a moment when we don't feel and know what's going on inside of John. There's never a moment when we don't experience his anguish and ecstasy. The narration is solid, but it's the dialogue between husband and wife that makes this book what it is. It's watching Sara (the character) gently directing John's mind, leading him where she wants him that makes this book one of those pieces of fiction that I read over and over.

I have a few books that I always seem to be reading. Sara Desmerais's "A Change in our Marriage" is one of them. When I get to the end, I flip back to the beginning and watch it unfold all over again.

The ending is a natural feeling ending, and it's thrilling, and it establishes where John and Sara will now be. The point of no return. The change.

A Change in Our Marriage


Saturday, March 9, 2013

The Hotel by Deborah Ford

I have read a LOT of fiction. I have read a LOT of TG fiction. I have frequented Fictionmania and published there. I have frequented Literotica and published a few stories there. My Kindle is full of stories about gender transformations, wives becoming Mistresses, leading to cuckoldry, the feminization of their husbands, etc.

There are only a hand full of stories I read over and over. The Hotel is one of those. I kid you not . . . as soon as I'm done with it, I leave it around to read through it again.

My first experience with "The Hotel" was on Fictionmania. I liked it well enough to download it, but it wasn't one of my favorites. I felt the story barely got started before unfeeling Mistresses were whipping him. It was a bit of a turn off. But Deborah Ford removed her stories and re-wrote this one from scratch, and did an amazing job on it. She expanded it to a full length novel that has become one of my all time favorites.

What I like about is this: there is a feeling of control in each and every page; it follows the main character from being a husband getting to experience his dream come true fetish to suddenly finding himself as only a silly maid completely under the control of the Hotel staff. Mistresses are clever and all knowing and willing to establish their authority with both whips and sharp tongues, but the most delicious scenes are those between the main character (whose new name is "Debbie") and his wife (who has even more deliciously chosen to go by her maiden name, "Miss Johnson"). The Hotel has assigned her a new man (Paulo) to take care of her while she is there, and he has a vested interest in increasing his hold on the wife and furthering Debbie's emasculation and descent into being just another meaningless, silly headed maid.

From the very beginning, you can see our hero's doomed fate, and it's a step by step fall that is utterly delightful with each step. His struggle is so wonderful that I find it almost impossible to stop reading, and it's on going. Every single thought that is not devoted to being a silly maid is caught up with when he'll have a chance to confront his wife and ask her to take him out of there. It's so agonizing and it's such a tease, because he constantly gets close and feels the helplessness of the Hotel conspiring against him.

Of course, one of my favorite aspects of the story is that there is a hint of mind control, behavior modification that remains subtle, and constant. The character is being manipulated, changed, controlled, and being made to enjoy it every step of the way. He almost doesn't notice that he is becoming utterly submissive and dumb and obedient.

Nice job. Well worth the price, and she's done a sequel, The Hotel Christmas Special, that I will review soon.

This one gets give painted toes for its highly erotic story telling.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

The Spectrum

Kinsey did an amazing thing. In his study of sexuality (and himself), he broke open the paradigm of the time. In other words, everyone just assumed there's only 2 genders and only a handful of sexual preferences. You're either a boy or a girl. You're either heterosexual or homosexual.

We're not quite there yet, but we know these obvious categories are (to be honest) . . . bullshit.

People are more interesting than that. People are more diverse than that. I, like many of you, am more interesting than that (at least to me).

So what are you? How do you define yourself? If you're reading this blog, then you probably don't define yourself in a mainstream category.

There's a term that many people use to express their distress with defining themself: Gender Confusion.

Appropriate, perhaps. It certainly feels confusing. I found it highly embarrassing growing up. Labels define us and give us comfort, but they also force restrict us. If you think you are something, then doesn't that mean to be it you have to fit into every tiny part of the definition.

In the BDSM lifestyle, people have opened up some of those labels in ways that would make Kinsey proud. I'm not Dominant or submissive; I'm a switch who leans heavily toward submissive. It's a way of telling someone what my interests are without launching into a long diatribe about every little experience and feeling that splits me off from the main herd.

Gender is a little different, but how about this as a definition?

Pseudo Fetishistic Transvestite.

Jesus. Who would want to be that? Just the term "Transvestite" comes with its own dose of humiliation and nonacceptance, now add "Pseudo" and you get the idea that I'm not even an authentic Transvestite. Then throw in Fetish and you get the idea that I'm running around in a gimp suit (a.k.a. covered in leather from head to toe with a leather hood, etc.).

The odd thing about me is I'm very normal. I have sex with women. I have no interest in having sex with men, but I like men. I have many male friends, but no, we don't discuss my sexuality, because we don't discuss their sexuality.

First, let's apply the term and I'll what it means to me (if you're interested . . . if not, I'll throw in another pretty picture of a pretty woman).

Okay, first, I have no desire to get a surgery in order to obtain breast implants, soften my face, shave my Adam's apple or remove my favorite male fun part (though there are times it would be nice if it was removable just so I could get more done).

Second, I'm not really much of a cross dresser. I have dressed in the past, but I found it more exciting to shop for and acquire the clothes than I did to wear them. (I'm not very pretty as a woman, just so you know.)

Third, it's the fantasy (hence the word "pseudo") that is exciting. In the real world, I can think of nothing better than diving into the warm, soft flesh of a woman and using every tool (heh, I said "tool") at my disposal to send her to dizzying heights of ecstasy.

So, I'm a straight guy who loves the fantasy of being turned into a woman, but in actuality doesn't act upon any of those desires, though I do like a little roleplay in my relationships that can learn that way.

The disadvantages I feel to being this way are this:
  1. It's not widely accepted, certainly not by men and not by many women, who can't or won't understand that anyone might have a sexuality different from their own.
  2. I've been ashamed of it and therefore repressed it (which only makes matter worse) and felt for the longest time like I have a "thing inside me" or a "beast inside me" that won't go away. Disassociating from it leads to dire consequences.
  3. Even within the fetish community sometimes there is misunderstanding and nonacceptance.
 The advantages I feel to being this way are this:
  1. I've always taken great pride at being a little different. Well . . . this is different. Congratulate me.
  2. I have a much better understanding of women (and often people) and enjoy sympathizing / empathizing with women. This, I feel, makes me a better person.
  3. If ever I needed a passionate subject to write about, I have it (in spades or, er, heels).
  4. Venus envy isn't such a bad thing. Rather than behaving as a misogynistic jerk, I support my female friends and I know in my heart they're great people who are capable of great things.
So, there you go. Nice and boring. Hey, that's why I write my little erotic pieces, because it's much more fun and interesting to express myself through fictional characters than to sit here writing this kind of stuff all the time.


Wednesday, March 6, 2013


I love women. That's all there is to it. I'm not a Lothario or a 'player'. I don't cheat on my lovers, nor do I behave inappropriately. When I'm seeing someone, I'm seeing her and her only.

But I do love women.

I love everything about them, the way they smell, the way they taste, they way they speak, the way they think, the way they move. . . everything.

I even love the way they hurt me (and I'm sure I've done my share in return).

I'm a switch, by the way. I love dominating a woman, but I also love a woman who is strong and sharp and keen and can put me in my place.

Being the creative type, I write, draw, play a little music from time to time. I've got a wit and an advanced sense of humor. Being the creative type, I have no choice but to pour our my desires and thoughts from time to time onto an unsuspecting audience. That's you, by the way.

If you're transgendered in anyway, much of how I feel will be familiar to you. Perhaps you are heading towards the great "transition". Perhaps, like me, you love the fantasy of it.

Here are a few my of favorite items to dwell upon:

BDSM - Men in control of women or women in control of men or women in control of women. I do not have a problem with gay men. They're lovely, but for me any equation of desire has to have a female.

Hypnosis- an offset of BDSM power play. I don't care if it's real or if it's a subject "going along with it" or roleplay. It's exciting. Control (and the loss thereof) is exciting.

Transformation- most specifically . . . gender.

Gender, to me, is the oddest part of life. We struggle against the role we're forced into . . . by society / culture, by our peers, by our parents, by our biology, and we can be strangely reassured by it. But it drives me a little crazy.

A little crazy is a good thing. It makes me write.

You can find my fiction at Fictionmania.

You can also find my fiction at Literotica.

And recently, I've begun publishing my work at Amazon.

Note: As I re-write and publish some of my fiction on Amazon, I will be removing them from the free sites. Download them while you can.

There are 2 works of mine that you can't get anywhere but Amazon. They are:

Little Brown Girl
A story about an old man who finds himself stuck in the body of a native woman and how his wife does anything but help him.

The Bridled Heart
A tale about a woman who decides to write a story about ponygirls and bites off more than she can chew.

The last story Her Turn was previously posted for free on Literotica. It has been rewritten and published on Amazon. I'm adding new chapters as I go. Read it while you can for free; all the newest chapters will be on Amazon only.

I love women. Did I mention that? I especially love the women here in Austin, Tx. They are amazing. I'll be posting more in the future, but for now, stay safe, sane and consensual . . . ya'll.